Where did the day go?
I did not write yesterday.Not because I didn't want do. It was one of those days that by the time evening rolled around ,I looked back and realized that another Saturday had flown by. I dropped Susan at the shop at around 8:15 and then shot across town to care for Cosmo , my brother's dog.They are away for the weekend so Cos and I got to have some quality time. I had a mission for the day and as soon as I got home I set about cleaning the house. It was oppressively hot outside so yard work was not on my priority list. With the a/c on, it seemed like the perfect opportunity to have at a top to bottom house cleaning. I started in the bathroom.We have one small bathroom in our house. That took an hour.Then I moved on to the hall and kitchen,3 hours later that was done. After a quick trip to the shop to pick up a mop, I took on the dining room,living room and my office space.Before I knew it, 6 o'clock had rolled in,Susan was home and ready to grab some dinner.Where did the time go?
Today my body feels like who did it and ran. My shoulders ache. My back is sore, and my legs feel like I did a 5k (which I do not do anymore.....a subject for another time!).
The house looks, feels and smells spectacular.
Today, Susan and I will attack our bedroom and the laundry room together.
Where did this surge of domestic energy come from?
It came from peace of mind.
For a brief period of time,for the first time in over a month, my brain was not in survival mode.The dreaded feelings of lack that have been so pervasive for weeks and weeks were gone, if only for this brief period in time.
I cleaned as if I was getting ready for Passover. I took apart the stereo that has not worked since we used it at the Why Weight Christmas party. Better yet, somehow,I got it working again and it will soon find its way to its new home in Max's suite upstairs.
Even dinner was a treat. Without the worries of how much I was spending,dinner for 2,$15! How do you beat that!It was delicious and relaxing.A Mediterranean bill of fare that we could barely finish!
Today has started with the same sense of calm. It was already 86 degrees when I drove across town to walk the dog. The heat index must have been well over 90. Cutting the lawn today is out of the question for me. As planned, Susan and I will finish cleaning. I do plan to laze around in the pool a bit ,and do some reading. A late night text yesterday invited us to a bbq/graduation party which will cap off the day.We will have to make a quick trip to the Hallmark store for a card,and hit the ATM, for some gift money. All of this so much easier when I am not burdened with the mental weight of mere survival mode.
The take-away for me from all of this?
Don't sweat the small stuff,no matter how big and overbearing it may seem, It just ain't that important and it never is as bad as it feels.In fact , as long as I can still feel anything, I might as well choose to feel great!Anything else is a waste of precious time energy and resources.
Shavua Tov!
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