Another funeral.

I just got home from another funeral.Much like the funeral I attended last week, I was not sure why I chose to attend this one. The decedent was an acquaintance. I was friendly-ish with her kids in high school.When my children were younger, she had them over on Shabbat afternoons a few times when her grandchildren were in town.Honestly that was many years ago. Still, something called me to make sure I went.

Her oldest son is a professional musician. I follow his exploits as he tours locally as well as in the U.K.He is a modern day troubadour telling tales through his music.
During today's funeral,instead of speaking about his grandmother, my friend's son, played his harmonica . I know that may sound a bit unusual. Let me just say....you had to be there. The emotion and feeling expressed in this young man's music captured more than words could ever express. There was a beauty that was just beyond words.
It was in that moment I knew why I was supposed to be there today. It was in that moment that I realized that instead of questioning why I feel compelled to go to these affairs, I may just want to sit and listen for what I may learn about life when I am there.
Over a year ago, I was asked the question"do you ever regret giving up music?".I loved when I was involved in music. I was talented. I had a good voice.I enjoyed performing.What I wasn't was all in passionate about it. For my friend Dean,music is his life. You never saw him without guitar in hand. If there was a piano in the room, that is where he sat. If there was a drum he banged on it. If there was a horn, he tried blowing it and if the instrument had strings he had to strum it.It was this love and passion for music, a gift from his mother, that he has in turn past on to his son , who shared this with us today.
Music to me was fun. It was nice. It was not my life.I never had that kind of passion. Talent will get you only so far. Passion is what ultimately inspires greatness.
Now I am left with the unanswered question.......
what then is my passion?
And so my Journey continues!