Keep the bar down!

The roller coaster ride of emotions continues for me. I am constantly reminding myself to keep the bar down.
There are moments of fear that set in as the challenges in my world begin to mount . I am at a loss in that moment to see the road ahead of me.I know that light will always follow dark,however,there is that brief period when the fear begins to rise again.
Keep the bar down!
There are also those times when I become exuberant over having found new possibilities to explore. I become filled with energy and enthusiasm.
Keep the bar down!
Every waking hour,okay every waking minute,brings a new twist or turn or curve in the road. I have to repeat over and over again....
Keep the bar down!
When I find myself on this roller coaster,I also have to remind myself that there is a difference between holding on and hanging on.
The former is much more proactive than the latter.There is a desperation to hanging on that makes me uncomfortable. I can hang on as in wait for something or I can hang on as off the edge of a cliff. Either one seems perilous to me. I don't feel as if I am in control in either situation.It is inevitable that if you hang on to long eventually you will lose your grip.
Holding on seems a bit more passive.It feels temporary, almost like a lace of rest.Holding on seems like a stabilizer until I am ready to move on.When I am on hold or holding on, I always feel like I have a choice as to when to start to go again.
When I am hanging on,letting go never seems like an option. Letting go at times is just as important as holding on. These are the choices we make day in and day out.
In either case, holding on or letting go, I know the choice is mine.
It's this ability to choose that gives me strength.
And no matter which choice I make,I know I am fine,so long as I keep the bar down!