Day 2 of Cheerful.

I have to tell you. Cheerful is tough. I find it as difficult as being normal (not a fat guy).In my new body,I am constantly reminding myself to stand up straight,walk with a purpose and exude the confident me that I know I am. So it is with cheerful. I have to remind myself to smile. Not just when I am with other people,all of the time.Becoming comfortable being cheerful all the time is as challenging as seeing myself as a guy who wears size 32 jeans. It's very unnatural to me.
I look forward to the time when I no longer have to think "be cheerful". I suppose anything new takes practice. I know that over time,I will adjust and become more comfortable being cheerful. Given enough practice , I am confident it will become second nature to me. I compare it to when I first started using a computer. It was all so very foreign to me. It has taken me years to not be afraid that I may screw something up or get frustrated at not being able to figure something out. Somehow along the way, I became proficient enough at what I use on the computer ,that others turn to me for advice. Who would have ever thought that would happen?Don't get me wrong, I am no tech savvy guru. I have a certain skill set that I employ on a daily basis and it has provided me with a comfort level that makes me appear competent.
There will undoubtedly come a point where I no longer see myself as a fat guy. This has changed little by little over the last few months. Eventually it will change completely. I am sure the road to cheerful will be the same.Until then,just like everything else in life, I will take it one step at a time,one day at a time, one smile at a time.
Cheerfully yours,
David