When I got back from the gym yesterday, I peeled off my workout clothes and headed to the shower. En-route, I got a good look at myself in the mirror. Here's the cold hard truth. This is not a body that makes anyone stop and say "damn.....I needs to get me some of that!".Sad as this may be, it is the obvious truth.After 3 years of weight loss and months and months of commitment to building a better me,I have not been able to turn my garbage truck of a body into a hot, sexy, Ferrari.
As disappointing as this may seem,I have come to terms with this.What I actually have now is a brand new mini-van. And the truth is, I love mini-vans!
Functional,dependable and perfect for family and friends.
This is a vast improvement from the garbage scow of a body that I started out with 36 months ago. 
My expectations may have been unrealistic and that has played a huge part in my inability to enjoy my transformation. Before yesterday, every time I got a glimpse of myself in a photo or a mirror, I was immediately let down,expecting to see that sexy red sports car.
I am not sure what made yesterday's experience different. I only know that it was. I found myself being more than just accepting , actually pretty pleased, at the guy looking back at me in the mirror.It made the rest of my day very pleasurable.
Maturity? 
Maybe.
Self acceptance?
 Perhaps.
Rewarding?
Definitely!