How Am I Dong?
Funny you should ask.
I can tell you that by all measurable criteria I am doing great.
I am maintaining a healthy eating regimen.
 I am ahead of my bill paying for the first time in I can't remember how long.
The work week is drawing to a close. 
The Grooming Shoppe was busy all week.
The weather is a perfectly steamy summer's day.
I am on schedule with chores such as cutting the grass and keeping up with the yard work. 
All is good, or at least that is how it seems.
So why then am I feeling so uncomfortable?
I am fretting over the proverbial "the check is in the mail" that should have been here 4 days ago.
I am waiting on a response to an email that is literally the last missing piece to a project I have been working on for months.
I am waiting on a follow up call on a conversation that will move a new opportunity forward.
And I am waiting for updates from a number of vendors, with out which I am at a stand still.
Besides the stress that comes with new things or changes, the one thing that makes me even more uncomfortable is waiting.
Waiting on others in particular. 
Not being in control of my own destiny.
It is very frustrating to me. 
Although I hate to believe it, I sometimes think that I really am a glass half empty kind of guy.
I have no control over the fore mentioned delays that I am experiencing.

If I truly was a glass half full guy I would be reveling in all of the good things I laid out at the top of this email. Instead , I am locked in with a laser like focus on these things that absolutely will work themselves out and that I have no direct impact on when it comes to moving them along.
Since I became a life coach, I have worked at viewing the glass as neither half full or half empty. I always want to view it as a glass,just a glass that I have control over. 
A glass that I can fill as often as I care to whenever I care to.
It is about abundance.
And if my life is really one of abundance, I should care less what is in the glass at any particular moment. It is of no consequence since I have the ability, opportunity and resources to change that whenever I chose to.
And yet, I am uncomfortable today. 
I am uneasy today.
I am having a tough time just letting go.
So much so it is effecting my breathing. 
I am not sure if the stiffness in my back is real or a byproduct of stress.
Am I choosing to make myself miserable or is it my inner mind trying to make me aware of something?
I'm not sure.
One of these stresses has already worked itself out,at least for the time being.
So maybe just maybe I can build on that, relax and really take some time to smell the flowers!
Shabbat Shalom!