Day 4
Day 4 and it happens to fall on a Friday which affords me the opportunity to tell you how I am doing.
Well I am doing great!
As we head into a weekend, I am always concerned about staying on course. Saturdays always have and continue to be a challenge for me when it comes to sticking with my food protocols.I believe I am in a good place to handle this better tomorrow.
On my drive to work this morning, I had a conversation with myself about this.
Quite honestly, by other people's standards, I don't really have to be on cycle right now. If I stayed where I am ,I could blend in with the general population. People would say I look fine, even good.
Those people don't see the number on the scale every morning. Those people don't notice that my clothes are feeling snug.
 Besides,who wants to just blend in!
So Day 4 of 40....10% done  if I choose to look at it that way.
There is no magic number I am trying to get to. I don't have a specific goal in mind other than doing the 40 day program to the letter of the law.
It's refreshingly liberating to have this attitude.
There are no "I can't haves". There is no sense of denial. I have no cravings.
My mission is to just do this to the best of my abilities.
I was asked today if I would consider driving a couple of more ,2 or 3 hours a week. We have a new person in a wheelchair who needs to be transported 3 days a week after my run would normally be over.
The last thing I ever imagined was being a bus driver.
Still,I said yes of course.
The money part? 
That's inconsequential. 
It really does not amount to much of anything. 
Agreeing to do this felt like the right thing to do. 
After I had agreed to do this , I had yet another conversation with myself.
Did I need this?
Why am I adding tis to my plate?
Is this enhancing me in any way?
Why did I say yes to making myself so available?
I was a little befuddled by my choice . That is until I ran into a woman wearing a t-shirt that read"
My to do list"
1) Wake up.
2) Be Awesome!
There ya go!
That's all I have to do. Wake up every day and go out and be awesome. The rest of it is just minor details.
Life can be pretty simple!
Shabbat Shalom!