35 months later!

Today I am exactly one month shy of the 3 year anniversary of the start of my Journey.There have been a lot of How am I doin' Fridays in the last 35 months.After dropping Susan at work this morning,I spent the drive back home thinking about how I am doing.How am I doin' Fridays came about when a friend wrote to me and said"love hearing from you daily.....but how are you doing...I mean are you losing weight? how much weight have you lost?"
Since then,I have used my Fridays as a touchstone,a time to check in with myself, to see just how I am doing.
My weight is okay.....not quite where I am comfortable and certainly no where near the 182 pounds I weighed on Thanksgiving morning.I work daily at getting closer to that number.Not in an obsessive way,more like a point on the horizon to set my sights at.
I still have a significant challenge with how I perceive my size.Besides the fact that I have no concept of how I look compared to "normal" people, I also have little to no self awareness of where I have come from.I forget just how big big was.
For the most part, I just am.I get up,I get dressed,I go about my day and I don't give this stuff much thought.On this particular How Am I Doin' Friday,I seem to be tuned in to this part of my life.The shirt I am wearing didn't fit 10 days ago.Looking in the mirror,I don't love the way it looks on me today.As I think about it.....maybe it's the shirt. All of my other shirts that are the same size fit just fine. This one is just a bit snug for my liking.
Wow.....that sounds so vain and petty.I'm just being honest.
My hand and arm are getting better each day.On Sunday I will go to the gym and begin the long journey back.I know I can do some light cardio,stretching and possibly handle a few strength apparatus.
Next Saturday was supposed to be my first 5k for the 2016 season. I'm telling you now......that's not happening!
I'm okay with that choice.It was an easy one to make.My plan....one day at a time.I'll be back.....it's just going to take some time.
Shabbat Shalom!