Unleash the Beast!

When I woke up this morning, I had every intention of sharing  something I witnessed last night. It was both heart warming and inspiring.My initial thoughts were positive and reflective. As I prepared to start my day, I realized that inside of me there was an uneasiness that did not relate to what the story I wanted to share had to offer. It was as if there was a wild animal deep within me that wanted to be set free. It was an angry feeling. Like a bull snorting and pawing at the ground, I knew it could not merely be ignored. I knew That I dare not turn my back on it for it would surely charge at me and completely overwhelm and devastate me.
Anger,fear, uncertainty, disappointment,betrayal and more were all words that were racing through my brain. The fierce animal inside was growing more and more restless. The feelings were becoming menacing.They must be addressed.
It was at that point that I remembered something that my mentor Darren Hardy shared with me a short while ago. 
When it is time for change,get angry!
Soon I abandoned my original writing plans and turned my attention towards the anger.
Get angry!
I started to think about all of the people I could be angry at.
I started listing all of the situations that I could be angry about.
I started tallying all of the disappointments that I could be angry about.
Staggering best describes the number of things and the number of individuals I could be angry at.
Then I remembered the rest of the advice Darren left me with. There is no one to blame for any of this other than myself.All of the things that have happened,I let happen. All of the folks who let me down? I allowed it.
All of the presumed failures rest squarely in one place,on my shoulders.
So what do I do with that? Do I beat myself up?Do I knock myself down? Do I berate and bemoan all that has come before?
No!
I get angry and I do something about it.
I draw not a proverbial but a real line in the sand and say enough is enough.
I can't change what has happened. I can't undo what has been done.
If something broke, I can't unbreak it.
I can repair it!
I can fix it!
I can chart a new course of action!
After so many defeats and let downs,where will I find the energy to pick myself up? To do it again? To start over one more time?
I will find it in the anger!The anger brings up an untapped wealth of resources that I either simply forgot about,become lazy over or never realized I had within me.
It does not matter where this energy was. All that matters is I have it at my disposal and now is the time to use it.
A number of months ago, someone called me out over some colorful language I had used i my writing.
"You right so beautifully why would you diminish it by using "cuss" words" she asked.
Because it was how I felt!
I wasn't mad....I was Fu@#ing P!$$ed off!
You get the idea.

Sometimes,anger is a really good thing.
Today is one of those sometimes!
Beware the beast is out!

Shabbat Shalom!