Day 9
 and feeling fine!
(okay the scale was less stupid today!)
It has been 5 plus weeks since I started dealing with this pain in my ankle.
Walking standing or any other upright activity is greeted with discomfort that runs the gamut from intense to unbearable.
To be fair, it is getting much better.
So much so that for the last 2 days, there are times when walking feels close to perfectly normal.
Living with the pain for weeks has left me shell shocked to the point that when I think about standing up or walking, I brace myself for what I am about to encounter. The truth of the matter is, as I just said, it is a whole lot less of an encumbrance and I am looking forward to some sort of normalcy in the near future.
It has been just about a year since I lost my coaching job.
It has left a void, both financially and energetically.
There is a huge disconnect for me.
On a daily basis I was communicating with upwards of 100 people .
Some of these communications were short and factual while others were the starting points to relationships that continue to this day.
Until today, I did not understand the magnitude of this loss.
I have been saying for a while now that my desire to be productive is becoming overwhelming and that I am at a loss as to where I can find that well to draw from.
I am not interested in chasing unicorns.
I deal in the real world.
I am a fairly grounded individual.
I know there is a "something" or a "someone" out there who can use my input or assistance.
I am less frustrated about this just knowing that an opportunity will reveal itself at some point.
Even little things matter. I found a radio station that plays oldies,and classics.
Stuff from the 50's,60's and 70's.
I play it on the bus in the morning. The seniors who sat there in a semi comatose state in the past are now humming, singing and most importantly smiling. Their interactions with each other and myself have blossomed. 
I consider this a win for the home team.
And the home team surely can use a few wins nowadays!