Day 37
As this 40 day cycle draws near to its end,I must admit that I am feeling kind of proud of myself and my son.
Speaking for myself, I know just how diligent I have been.
Yes, I have done this before and at this point it should be a piece of cake,(no puns intended).
In actuality, I think for someone who has had success and who then finds themselves back on the program,after gaining some weight that they shed months ago, the process can be deflating. 
One can and often does get caught up in the"oh no....here we go again" mode.
We call this being a victim.
Despite the fact that both of us are retracing the path we went down before,we have remained upbeat and committed to the process. 
Kudos for us!
In his message today, my mentor John Maxwell, speaks of fear vs. faith.
His premise is that we don't get rid of fear, we just develop more faith. When the faith out weighs the fear, life becomes better. Fear is no longer the controlling factor. Faith carries us through the day.
I think there is a direct parallel to what Max and I are going through right now. 
Sure  there are still clothes from skinniest me that do not fit (not even in the ballpark!).
Yes, I could stare at the scale and remember when the numbers were lower.....much lower.
I could choose to feel defeated by the fact that I am doing this again.
Or I can feel good about losing 20 pounds. 
I can celebrate my steadfast commitment to the process.
I can embrace the lifestyle that comes with the choices of clean eating .
My choice to incorporate into my life all of the positive aspects of what I am doing and to put away any of the negative thoughts that could pop up is something I will build upon.
The phrase "look on the bright side" might come to mind. 
Forget that baloney!
The fact that there is a bright side acknowledges that I am still carrying a dark side.
Let it go!
Move on!
Grow past it!
Faith over fear.
Happy over sad.
Live for today and let yesterday stay where it belongs......in the past.
Look straight ahead and forget about the rear view mirror.
The road ahead ......that's the only thing that matters.
And maybe the scenery along the way as well!
Chag Samyeach!