Starting over is a lot harder than it seems!

Saying I am going to get back to all of those things I had been doing when I was so successful and actually doing them are 2 different realities.My thoughts and my actions are not exactly on the same wave length yet.
And that's okay.
Punishing myself or beating myself up over this disconnect would and could be harmful. Acknowledging it and making another attempt is much more productive. Eventually I will find my way. 
A few weeks ago, we had a house guest....I guess he was 10 or 11. My son Max showed him a video game which was a puzzle solving game. Time and time again, our little guest came upon the same task and over and over again, he would succumb to the pitfalls and his character would get killed.Over and over, boulders would crush him, branches would impale him, things would decapitate him or monsters would destroy him. As he would regroup and make another attempt ,we would all start laughing knowing that his fate was inevitable.1,2, 3 ,4 attempts at the same event and always the same outcome. Until,there was a different outcome. Once he had figured out how to navigate the obstacle, he simply was able to move on....to the next pitfall, where once again he would fail more often than not. It was great fun.He never got frustrated.We would howl with laughter as his character met his demise repeatedly and cheer loudly when he finally figured out the correct maneuver that allowed him to move on.
The game is called Limbo. If you play video games this one is a keeper!
The whole experience resonates with me.I feel like the little character in the game. I find myself in limbo as I wend my way along this part of my Journey. 
And it's okay.
I just keep at it until I figure out the next move.I remind myself that every time I fail or every time I do not succeed, it is just another opportunity for me to try again.And no matter whether I move on or start over, constantly reminding myself that life is a game and I am supposed to have fun at it!