Day 1000!

That's how I am doin' on this "How am I doin'"Friday. 
Who would ever have thought?Not me! 
Not in a million years!
When I started out on this Journey, this Journey of 100 days, I had only one goal. It was not to lose "x" pounds. It was not to fit into a size "x" waist.It was not to be able to walk a mile or to look a certain way. My one goal was to not fail. Soon after I began this Journey, I added a second goal.. Don't quit.....do not give up!Armed with 2 goals I began to realize as in any really great video game, the object is to collect more and more treasures or prizes. At first I spent a lot of time trying to figure out "why". 
Why was I the way I was? 
Why had this happened ? 
Why had I become the person I was?
Now I understand that all of those old why's were meaningless. They did not matter. 
The next question then became "what?". 
What do I want? 
What do I desire?  
What do I want to do with my life? 
What do I believe?
 What is next?
When became easy. The answer in most cases has been the same. I always knew it was time when it was. Not unlike Day 1, most changes began in a moment . Just like that, the time was now. There were false starts which just meant it was not time yet.So I would wait. Or restart.Or put it down knowing that there would be another "now's the time!".
Soon I began dealing with the always troublesome "how's". 
How do I do this? 
How do I get there? 
How is that even possible?
Eventually I learned that it was no different than eating the proverbial elephant.....one bite at a time. And after all of the questions and all of the discoveries, I found myself back at a very familiar point asking myself a very familiar question.
Why? 
Why am I here? 
What is my WHY?
After 61 plus years, and after 1000 days on this particular leg of my life's Journey, I am still working on this.It is a different way of looking at why. 
It is not the why of a victim. 
It is the why of a victor!
It is not asking why from the edge of the abyss. 
It is asking why at the edge of adventure.
Life is exciting!
 Life is jubilant! 
Life is glorious!
It seems like oh so long ago that I found myself asking "who am I?".
That question never comes up any more.
I am David. 
David....it means beloved. 
And that is exactly how I feel about myself.After 1000 days I can admit I cherish being me.It is a marvelous gift. It is a gift I want to share with as many people as I possibly can.My friends, my loved ones,my family ,my colleagues .
The weight loss?
 It's nothing more than the pretty paper the gift is wrapped in. 
And the bow.....well that's the smile on my face! 
I always have to remind myself that to make the gift really special, really beautiful, remember to put a bow on it!
Shabbat Shalom!