Still living in that same cursed house.

"Leaders lacking courage don't lead long."

-- doug smith

Once again I find myself living in the cursed house of lack.

The really stupid part is it's an imaginary house.

In fact, it's not a house, it's a self imposed mental penitentiary.

I have to get a car.

It is becoming more and more difficult for 3 adults to function with 1 vehicle.

It worked for a short while, but with Max starting a new job,albeit very part time and Susan's treatment schedule,the balancing act is teetering at best.

So I have begun a more aggressive search.

At first I thought,maybe something inexpensive.

Not a piece of junk ,but "well" used.

In my mind I had a number,$3000.

Everything that might work was closer to $5000.

So I said,maybe I will take on payments.

With a few grand down, I could keep the payments reasonable.

Slowly but surely as I searched, the price tags have gone up.

It doesn't make sense to take on payments for a car with 100k miles on it. So let's not look at any thing with more than 80k.

Okay,I found a few,however,if I can just raise the bar a bit I can get a car with under 50k miles. Move the bar a bit more and I can get a car with under 30k miles.

Before you know it, the monthly payment has gone from easy, to not terrible,to how did I get here!

When I take a step back,and stop living in Lack Penitentiary,there is no real excuse not to buy a car that is safe,and will last us for a decade.

Still,I can't seem to free myself from this self imposed isle of need.

Dumb,dumb, dumb!

The silly part is if I were coaching you or anyone else it would take me but a few minutes to help you see just how foolish that kind of thinking is.

I would have you zooming about town in the blink of an eye.

But when it comes to myself?

I'll be hitchhiking until I am 85 if I don't find a way to get over myself.

Like I said......

Dumb,dumb, dumb and dumber!

Shabbat Shalom!