For the first time in a very long time I feel as if I am about to settle into a manageable, sustainable routine.
My calendar has been for the most part a daily exercise of cutting and pasting this or that item to it. 2 weeks of filling in for the other driver while he was on vacation. Work shortened weeks because of Memorial Day,Shavuos and the 4th of July.
Add in covering at the shop when called upon and the change in my own driving schedule to include Sunday afternoons and now Sunday mornings, my daily routine has been unsettled at best.
Toss in the mountain of yard work I kept trying to accomplish and the prohibitive weather, either rain or heat,I felt as if life was like sitting in rush hour traffic  or a construction zone.
Today feels different. And as far as I can tell,there is a clear road ahead as well.
I have to admit that this has me feeling pretty darn happy.
Life is easier when the sailing is smooth.
Actually, as I write this I am reminded of a thought I had about a week ago and never had the opportunity to share with you. 
What I am no longer feeling is desperate.
Desperate people do desperate things.
This is not a good place to be......ever!
Driven, challenged, tested are all manageable.
With a clear mind and focus any challenge can be met.
 Desperation is entirely different. It clouds decision making. It poisons everything around you.
The choices made when driven by desperation are probably not the ones that I would make in a clearer more thoughtful state of mind.
I like not being desperate. 
Desperation leads to selfishness. All I can think of is myself, even when I think I am concerned for others.
I know for sure that when I am feeling desperate I am constantly searching for a way out instead of a new adventure.
Today there is no desperation and I am excited to be continuing on my Journey once again.