How uncomfortable!

After flying back and forth across the country and spending the majority of the week away from home, I am glad to see that my weight has basically held steady .With a another two weeks to go on my current cycle,I am okay with where I am . Now that I am back home, I can pick up where I was when I left and finish this cycle strong.
Excellent!
While I was away, I found myself wide awake at around 2 a.m one morning. Going down to the casino was not an option. Grabbing something to eat, also was not part of the program, Instead, I decided to watch some television. As I was channel surfing I found a movie that was just starting. The movie was "School Ties" ,the story of a Jewish teen athlete recruited to play football for a Catholic Prep High School ,set in the 1950's.
I had seen this movie when it first came out in 1992.It reminded me of some of the crap I endured growing up in the 60's and into the 70's.This time however, the movie brought up a whole different view of what my experience (as the lead's experience) was growing up as a Jew in our great nation.
A person of color can not hide the fact that he is a black man. There is no getting away from this and from the inception of any relationship it is on the proverbial table.
Not so as a Jew. I can be just another average white guy.....just like all of the other average white guys. Until......
Lunch is served and all they have are cheeseburgers.
Or that really pretty girl that you had such a nice time with asks which church you attend.
Or some one makes a wise crack.  
Now what do you do?
Suddenly everything changes.Either I have to come clean and open myself to what ever comes next, or choose to hide that "little" tidbit of information.
In either case, it almost always came at a cost.
It's something I have experienced and dealt with more times than I care to remember as I grew up.
There are still to this day, those occasions where I find myself facing these same episodes.
It is never pleasant. It is never fun.
As I approach 62,I am confident enough and committed enough to know exactly who I am.
As a child or a teen or even a young adult trying to find my way and my place in this world, it was as this movie reminded me ,all too often a very painful and uncomfortable experience.
Shabbat Shalom!