Helloooooooo!

After a very hot and humid day, accompanied by a torrential downpour,we are being treated to an absolutely gorgeous and delightful How am I Doin' Friday.
The stiffness in my neck is beginning to subside and I am actually finding my day quite enjoyable. That is with one exception. 
I woke up a little bit sad today.
Why sad?
Well,I was thinking about how difficult the last few weeks were and how I had withdrawn from friends, family and loved ones. I had flashbacks to a time when my Mom had been put on a certain medication. We watched as over time she began speaking less and less. She withdrew into herself. She was not the woman I had lived with for the previous 4 decades. This went on for about 3 years, until upon advice from a friend and doctor, we got her off of that particular medication. Within a matter of days, she was back. Smiling and talking and full of life and energy.
Where had she gone?
What was that like?
I'll never know. I only know that during the last few weeks as pressures mounted and my stress level grew, I felt like the person that she had become while on those meds. I have been sullen, preoccupied,uncommunicative and well, just not a lot of fun to be around.
So once again, why sad?
I was sad not because of the time I had lost. It's gone and I will just pick up from there. I grew sad over the people I had not heard from or been in touch with or reached out to over the recent and not so recent past.
Like my friends in Connecticut.Like my friends in California. Like my friends on Long Island or in South Jersey or the Carolinas, or Pennsylvania or in just about every other state and many countries around the world.
The list goes on and on. Even here at home,I have shut myself out of dinner conversations and other family events. I didn't even buy Susan a card for our anniversary nor did I open the ones she bought for me.
I feel awful for all of this.
Today, I find myself as calm and tranquil as I can ever remember. I have no idea how long this will last. I just know that while it is here and while I am experiencing it, I am enjoying it. 
I miss being in touch with so many people that committing to reconnecting to them all would virtually be impossible. I can only start with hopes that I am back in touch with as many as I possibly can.
And that list includes you!
Shabbat Shalom!