Here's my frustration................

"It is what you do with what you know that will determine the life you lead."

~ Darren Hardy 

So it's just about 7:30 in the evening. Susan should be home from work shortly. I got home about 30 minutes ago.

I left for work this morning at 7 as I normally do. after my morning run, I had just enough time to get to the supermarket,put away the groceries,start dinner ,check emails and handle some "business" and grab a quick lunch before heading back out for the second half of mt driving schedule.

Susan was in the shop by 8 this morning. The last dog left at a little after 7. Susan then drove Becca across town to her place and is en route home.

It was a long day for both of us. This is not an uncommon occurrence.

We both work hard and put in long days. My frustration? shouldn't we have more to show for our efforts?

Shouldn't it be easier to make ends meet?

I'm not looking for a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow.

I am hoping for something that feels more fair.

It's not like we're just starting out in life.

It's not as if we haven't been at this for our entire adult lives.

True for both of us,we are experiencing new chapters in our story, another starting over if you will.

Still, there are times,like right at this moment, when I find myself frustrated .

I suppose more for Susan than for myself.

I actually like long days.

I like leaving in and coming home in the dark.

Strangely enough, this is part of my core values.

I just believe that there should be more reward connected to the effort. I also would prefer that my bride not have to work at this quite so hard.

I don't think that's too much to ask for.

It makes me wonder what I'm doing wrong.

I hate being there.

It's the path that takes me from frustrated to sad.

And that's a path I don't want to head down today.