November is coming to a close.
I have spent a great deal of time with this month's word of the month:
FORGIVENESS.
The one take away from this is that I now understand that FORGIVENESS is an internal not an externally thing.
It, like many other things, is all about me.
Learning to show myself forgiveness has been a valuable lesson.
Last week,in the throws of my CDL dilemma, the women who heads up transportation affectionately kidded "get over yourself!" when I told her how stressed I was feeling over not being able to be as effective in my job.
What she said and what she meant were 2 different things. 
Her message was clear. 
I had to forgive (let go) of the guilt I was feeling.
I had to move on.
It took me a few days,but in the end I was able to"get over" myself and move on.
It is quite liberating.
Trust me, I can probably find at least 1 if not a dozen things in the course of a day to beat myself up over.
Heck, I spent the better part of 63 years doing just that.
It's this whole forgiveness thing that allows me to let go of those insecurities and self doubts that ultimately serves as a vehicle to move forward.
And when I am moving forward, when I am being productive, I am a better servant to myself and those around me.
In the end, that's all I want to do. 
Serve as many as possible as well as possible.