Bah!

Don't even ask where that free day on Sunday that we created by not going to South Jersey disappeared to ....I have no idea!
20/20 hindsight has me thinking that I wasted a day away!The average lifetime is calculated to have 27,375 days to it. If I do some quick math on average I have around 4000 days left. Wasting even one of them seems frivolous to me.
The sad news I feel the same way today.My morning started when Susan got a phone call which for some reason I decided to choose to react in a negative way to. It has soured my day,a choice which has continued to contaminate the rest of my day.
It is now going on 2 p.m. and I am in one foul mood. I have made one choice after another to continue to climb into this hole I have created and seem content and hell bent to wallow where I am if not to continue digging the hole even deeper. 
What's up with that?
There none of this is anything worth or in need of sharing.The only part I am sharing is the general attitude I have taken on today. 
Holiday blues?
Seasonal stress?
The pressures of every day life?
My discomfort in where I am in life?
All of the above?
Probably.
The one thing I know is this is all a matter of choice and for some reason I am choosing to be stuck here.
How do I fix it? Easy....make some other choices.
As simple as that sounds, I seem to be reluctant to do that. I have made a few attempts and each time some thing else has popped up and once again I made the choice to wallow.
I went to the gym, I sent some emails, I had some lunch ,I even tried to do some Holiday shopping on line hoping it would brighten my spirits.
Nothing, nada,zilch,zero,bupkis!
In this moment the only people who might enjoy my company and whose company I might enjoy is the Grinch and Ebeneezer Scroge. The good news is even they eventually had epiphanic moments.
I think what I will do now is go take a shower.
 Maybe more than just my body will get cleaned up!