2 a.m.!
I must have fallen asleep last night sometime between 10 and 10:30.I remember seeing the clock at 10 and very shortly there after it was lights out for me.Next thing I knew the clock read 12:07. I laid awake for a while and by 12:34 I realized I was now staring at the ceiling. My head was filled with all sorts of stuff I wanted to write about and share with you.Trust me, I will never be able to hone in on all that went through my mind.By 1:11 I decided that maybe it would be a good time to sit down and write to you. I haven't done that for the last 2 days,write that is.There just seemed to be so much white noise around me.
Now in the quiet stillness of the night, the noise has gone away. The only things I hear are my own thoughts.
Many of them are centered around Thanksgiving which will be here in a very short while. Two days to be exact.Thoughts of Thanksgiving stir up all kinds of things in my life, not the least of which are the why,what,how, who, and when of my being.
Maybe the words I am searching for are purpose, or meaning or significance.
What ever it is or they are, as I told you before, I am ill equipped to share all of my thoughts tonight with you here and now. Nor is there time.(I could ramble for hours!).
Many many things have popped into my head over the last hour and a half ,almost 2 hours (it's now almost 2 a.m.).
One that jumps out is that when I began writing over 3 years ago, my initial request and purpose was to elicit some sort of support to make a change in my life (ostensibly to lose weight).
How did I end up here?
My mentors all tell me that to get you must give.
Somewhere along the way,I foolishly became to believe that my writing was a gift that I was sharing with some people.
It wasn't a how to course.
It wasn't a self improvement lesson.
It wasn't a forum for spreading some new age gospel towards a better life.
It was just me sharing my life, my very ordinary life with some friends. Occasionally, one of you writes back and says something like,"yeah....me too." Or "Amen Brother!".Sometimes it is a word of advice that comes back like "hang in there!" or "Nice job!".
And every once in a while, my world gets rocked when I get back a note that says"Thanks!".
Wow,you have no idea how humbling that experience is.
When I decided to learn about life coaching, my purpose was to not end up as a curmudgeon for the rest of my life.
Not only have I learned how to spell curmudgeon, I have also learned that I can never become one.My life has way too many blessings in it ,not the least of which is to be able to share my thoughts with you.
And there in is the start of the change in my life that I set out to accomplish.
I think I'll finish my tea now and try and get some rest.
Peace!
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