Feel it and the Fix it!

8:48 in the morning.
In the 3 hours since I first opened my eyes, my state of being has really spiraled in the wrong direction. 
Maybe it has something to do with the weather (it's has become a dreary,drizzly chilly morning).
Maybe the scale (not my friend again today).
Maybe it was my trip to the suit store (I knew that would mess with my head).
Possibly even the bank balances ( they just never seem to grow!)
Maybe it's because it's Friday and we won't be having our weekly family Shabbat dinner .
(Becca is having oral surgery and Sara and Patrick are leaving for vacation tonight).
Probably all of the above and much more.
As I sat getting dressed this morning , realizing it was a How Am I Doin' Friday and that I would be writing to you to let you know just how I am doing, it dawned on me that maybe I bring this state of mind on by my thoughts (and in these emails).
I get a few emails from others who write regularly.
They all seem to use their writing to summon positive forces from The Universe.
When I read their stuff I am convinced that they all must live in some nirvana, where the Sun always shines, the grass is always green, there is no humidity, and the temperature is perfectly at just the right setting.
Flowers are always in bloom, birds are of course always singing and every home in the neighborhood has a babbling brook running outside of it.
I tend to write what I am experiencing.
I learned a long time ago that "Fake it til you make it" is not for me. 
Instead I have adopted a philosophy of feel it and then fix it.
There are ups and downs in life.
Our moods rise and fall with them.
Learning to keep the bar down on the roller coaster of life ensures that I never get too high or too low.
Wallowing in depression is not a good thing.
Flying in a state of constant euphoria is delusional.
Acknowledging what I feel, when I feel it is real.
Sometimes not fun, but real none the less.
Aha moment....in the past, on a morning like this, a cup of coffee and a danish would have been the perfect antidote (read cover up) for feeling the way I do today.
In the moments during and directly after consuming my sugary, decadent fix I would have felt satiated.
Shortly there after I would have felt guilty and that would have led me down the path towards a pastrami sandwich for lunch, grabbing a couple of other things to munch on along the way and ultimately deepening my dower mood.
My choice today is a couple of minutes of quiet reflection, and then that cup of coffee (you always have to have the coffee!).BTW.....as the rain continues to fall , The Sun is doing it's darnedest to peek through.
I'm gonna go grab that coffee and set about my day which I am sure will end with a rainbow in the sky!
Shabbat Shalom!