Wednesday, October 25, 2017

On Monday I went off on a mini tirade about being angry. Mt ranting eventually led me to exactly who I was mad at, myself. My writing concluded with an understanding that I should be kinder to myself and more accepting of myself. In the past, that kindness would have included some heart warming , soul nourishing binge eating.
Instead I chose to go back on program.
While pacifying myself with some yummy treats might feel good in the moment, like any other drug or vice it would only be a temporary fix,often leading to more self loathing.
Cutting back is always an option. However, as is the case i some other feel good vice that I have, abstinence is the best way for me to get back on track.
Self control is not always my strongest asset. As human beings, we seek pleasure. Saying no to ourselves is unnatural.
Being on cycle is not about saying no to anything. Being on cycle is my commitment to myself to take care of me.
I can show myself no greater kindness or respect than to make sure I take care of me. 3 days in and already I am feeling much better about myself.
Amazing.......simply amazing!

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