Early Morning Thoughts

It's 1:01. I have been staring at the ceiling in my room for the last half hour so I decided to make myself a cup of tea and get my day started by writing to you now.
I am not sure if my body feels that the 4 hours of sleep I have had already is enough for tonight or if I am having trouble quieting my thoughts.
In either case, tossing and turning in bed is not a great option.
As for those thoughts in my head, there is a lot going on in my life.
Many many changes!
One thing I have learned along the way on this Journey is that it takes me some time to adapt to change.
It's not that I am afraid of change. I just know doing new things,unfamiliar things, makes me feel unsettled and even uneasy.
This is actually a good thing. It serves as a reminder that I am moving forward. 
There are unknowns to deal with. There is the reality that what once was is now changing.
The comfort of my daily routine is gone. 
A new routine will eventually be established,,however "routine" does not happen over night.
Many of my skills are being tested as well as new skills which must be developed.
It's no wonder that I find myself unable to slow my brain down and fall back to sleep.
Today will be a very busy day. I will leave the house at around 6 am and probably will not get back home until 6 pm. Except for the first hour which will be spent in the gym, the rest of my day will be attending to things that fall outside of what was my daily routine.
Dealing with the unfamiliar as well as not being able to attend to my normal activities is unsettling to say the least.
There are many "what if's" to deal with.
If I had total recall, I am sure that one of my mentors has mentioned how to deal with the what if's of life.
In this moment, I seem incapable of tapping into those lessons.
I am a bit nervous, a bit excited, a bit scared,a bit timid,a bit sad and absolutely looking forward to dealing with all of these feelings.
The one thing I am sure of is that there will be quiet times again in the near future. For now, it's elephant eating time.
One bite at a time!
And maybe a little frog eating as well!