Not ready for a wheel chair!

Last night I stepped out of bed and as my left foot touched the floor I felt something go pop in my hip. I quickly pulled up my leg trying to not put any weight on it.The twinge subsided however it felt funny. I limped back to bed with hopes that by morning this will have corrected itself.
Well......not exactly.
The early morning hours have been a test for me. To say I have been walking gingerly is an understatement. Thankfully as the morning has moved on and as I have kept moving,this seems to be easing .This minor incident did however cause me to reflect on the good fortunes of health as well as how I might handle a time when I may become physically and / or mentally challenged. I thought about some of the people I saw over the holidays, many with canes, walkers and and wheelchairs. 
I began to think about how I will handle life when its quality begins to deteriorate. 
I don't know what that will be like when it happens. Today the thought of it is depressing and petrifying.
How will I live like that?
It's unimaginable. I know.....it beats the alternative.
But does it really?
Thankfully I am not in that situation today. It scares the hell out of me. I am scared for my children,for Susan as well as for myself.
I fear the day when I am at the receiving end of  a life that needs help on a daily basis.
I shudder to think of what that will be like.
Admittedly, there are many days even now when getting going in the morning is a challenge. There are also days where I feel my body shutting down as the day moves on.
I am not as young as I once was.
Then again, when I was younger I was not always in as good of shape as I am today.
This is why I must stay diligent.
It is so important for me to stay active,eat healthy and take care of myself. Take care of myself as best as I can for as long as I can.
I am struggling on this How am I doin' Friday to wipe these thoughts from my mind. It has been unsettling and the limping and pain in my hip , the soreness I am experiencing and the nagging pains that are plaguing me today are not making it any easier to dismiss them.
Thankfully, I refuse to give in,to knuckle under or to succumb to any of these annoyances.
Dinner is in the oven. I experimented a bit in the kitchen with a new gadget and a new thrown together recipe. 
(it didn't come out quite as well as I had hoped....and yes you van use too much garlic!)
I've actively cleaned up after myself,making sure that every thing has been washed and put away. 
I have a few errands to run before settling in for a few hours of office work.
And in 15 days I turn 62.
When did that happen?
Scary!
Shabbat Shalom!