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Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen hard. Practice wellness. Play with abandon. Laugh. Choose with no regret. Appreciate your friends. Continue to learn. Do what you love. Live as if this is all there is.”
Mary Anne Radmacher
A quick glance at my desk top calendar this morning alerted me to the fact that the High Holidays are 8.5 weeks away.
Sadly, the only feelings I have towards that is ambivalence.
I certainly am not excited about it.
Nor am I experiencing any of the introspection that I normally do at this time of year.
Actually as I look ahead at the calendar , all I see is a disruption in my daily routine.
I'l miss 10 days of work during the holidays.
That's 2 full weeks of pay.
We will have to close the shop for at least 2 days as well.
The way Sukkot falls , I will not be able to host my annual gala open house either,an event that I look forward to each year.
So there is nothing about this upcoming holiday season that is stirring any excitement or anticipation in me.
Last months word of the month,OBLIGATION, comes to mind. I am feeling obligated to fill my role at shul.
I am feeling obligated to be with family at fairly inconvenient times and places.
I am feeling obligated to make sure I have nice outfits to wear.
I am feeling obligated in very negative ways.
Hopefully as the days and weeks pass, I will experience a shift in my attitude towards the yom tovim.
If not, I fear that I am in for a long and depressing season.
That would really suck!
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