What Was That All About?

 I have no idea why yesterday became such a boil over day for me.
I am sure starting out with my greater than usual back pain had some thing to do with it.
I also know that whatever it was, it was probably something else.
Confusing?
Not really.
Along the way on my Journey , I have discovered that when I get as uncomfortable in so many different aspects of my life as I was yesterday, it's probably a sign that I need to pay attention to something.
They say (who ever they are) that we are the average of the 5 relationships that we spend the most time with. 
If you want a better life, hang out with better people. 
I find that to be absolutely true.
Unfortunately, the 3 people I spend the most time with are me, myself and I.
Not exactly the standard bearers that will help me become a better me !
I did hear from a couple of people who had some thoughts around my rantings.
One dear friend suggested that the guy in the mirror was A-Okay in her book.
Now that's a person who if I could spend more time with I know would be that standard bearer who would make a difference in my life. Unfortunately, the 3000 miles between us puts a damper on the amount of time we can spend together.
Another friend suggested that it sounds like I am ill at ease with the changes in my relationship with my adult children. again, great insight and again, geographic limitations denies any real time together.
A 3rd voice from yet another friend and colleague, made it abundantly clear that having a circle of "better" people around me would in fact be a plus for me.
The truth is I have become a bit solitary.
I drive my bus. 
I run errands.
I make dinners.
I go to bed and when I get up, I repeat the a fore mentioned tasks.
Not exactly inspirational!
I have some tasks that I perform which support some of my business interests. Most of them are fairly mundane and at best marginally important.
Being marginalized is certainly no way to grow.
Actually being marginalized kind of sucks!
One thing I know about myself is that it is my nature to be a farmer.
I see a plot of of land and I immediately want to know what I can grow on it.
It's said that idle hands are the devil's workshop. Surely the devil was in me yesterday.Coincidentally,in today's Darren Daily, my mentor has encouraged me to "act now".
He reminded me of the Eleanor Roosevelt quote "do something that scares you every day".
It's time to shake off the rust and mildew and clean up my act.
I have a colleague on the west Coast who has an opportunity that is worth perusing.
Today, I will push him on that. It's either a yes or no. 
Either way, today we address it.
There must be other such opportunities out there. What ever they are or where ever they are, now is the time to start tilling the soil.
If I want to be outstanding in my field (yes that's what farmers are!), I have to start by tilling the soil!