Hanging On, Holding On or Moving On

"Success is no accident. It is hard work, perseverance, learning, studying, sacrifice and most of all, love of what you are doing or learning to do"

 ~ Pelé

Hanging on, holding on or moving on.Which is it that I am doing right now?I know it's not hanging on. Hanging on (as in for dear life!) is what I did for years, maybe even decades.Every day seemed to be a struggle for survival.Just getting to the end of each day with out some new catastrophe or calamity was a major accomplishment.That all changed just about 5 years ago. It was in June of 2013 when for whatever reason I decided that it was time to move on. I did not realize it in that moment, however ,I can now look in my rear view mirror and kind of see what and when that happened.Over the next few years,I spent a lot of time and energy moving on from the catabolic existence that had plagued me for so long.I had definite goals:weight loss,getting healthy, working out and of course personal growth.And by all accounts, I did yeoman's job in all of these areas.Then came improving my financial situation. First by adding income sources including my bus driving job, then by slashing and making adjustments to spending and eventually initiating a plan to first reduce and the eliminate my debt levels.Again,moving on.Lately , and this can be viewed as an extended period of time, I feel like I have been just holding on.Every day I go about my business, accomplishing my tasks for that day, but not moving on,in any direction.

I know plenty of people who spend their entire lives doing this.

Going to work,  5 days a week, with the goal of getting to the weekend, just to do it all again the following week. That is until they get their 2 weeks paid vacation.

This is not who I am or what I do or for that matter what I want.

My quandary?

I am not sure what it is that I want.

My mentor Darren Hardy broached this subject coincidentally today.

When you are not sure of where you want to go, you first have to assess whee you are and then plot a course of how to get to your destination. 

First and foremost, you must figure out where you are headed.

Wandering aimlessly is holding on.

It's better than hanging on,running around in circles frantically or worse being paralyzed by inaction.

But it certainly isn't productively moving on

I'm not thrilled being here. I'm bored and getting a bit frustrated. I imagine when that frustration gets to be too much something will change.

I'm not sure if I can just sit around and wait for that to happen.

No............... I'm sure I can't.

Something has to change.

Something has to give.