Different & Difficult

  "I long to accomplish a great and noble task, but it is my chief duty to accomplish small tasks as if they were great and noble."

Helen Keller

Rosh Hashana has come and gone.

This year, the holiday was both different and difficult for me.

The different part was not attending services of any kind.

Unlike last year, not attending services was my choice, not something that was foisted upon me by silly restrictions.

My choice was a direct by-product of those silly restrictions from last year.

The shutdown of 2020 afforded me the space and opportunity to ask myself why.

Why do I attend services?

Why do I put myself through this?

Why do I even bother?

Unlike the the lyrics of the song, I am not dealing with " you don't know what you've lost til it's gone".

I am not feeling any significant loss around this what so ever.

The difficult part was walking away from and shutting down the business.

Like caring for an infant, this new endeavor needs a lot of constant attention.

It is to new to be able to just be on it's own.

For lack of a better analogy, it has barely begun to crawl.

Standing on it's own two feet is just not part of the program yet.

Losing two days to Hurricane Henri and then two more to Hurricane Ida, certainly has not helped either.

We are just not mature enough as an entity to be able to just absorb shutting down for six or seven days in less than a month.

Not to mention the shutdown we had due to a collapsed main drain.

It's been difficult.

Difficult and frustrating.

My frustration comes from feeling a bit helpless in avoiding these stumbling blocks.

Tow steps forward , one step back has started to feel a bit like one step forward two steps back and that to me is very frustrating!

Sunday is our Grand Opening Adoption Event.

My hopes are that it will serve as the priming of the pump here.

I truly believe that once we get a flow, we are well prepared to keep it going.

The phone just rang....our Valpack advertising just hit!

That's a good thing.....one step forward.

Of course, we do have another shutdown this week for Yom Kippur,(one step back?).

Maybe not.

Maybe it can be that day of reflection and contemplation.

Maybe it can serve as a time for remembering how grateful I am for what I have, what we have accomplished and all of the blessings that are yet to come our way.

Now that would be different!