“At times our own light goes out
and is rekindled by a spark from another person.
Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us.”
Albert Schweitzer
And then.....
Literally minutes after I finished writing yesterday about "Just deal with it", everything around me seemed to just burst into flames.
Of course I am speaking figuratively.
Without addressing any of the specifics with you, I found myself completely overwhelmed by the events of the day.
I literally felt like I was on the verge of a breakdown of some sort.
In that moment,when things were on the verge of exploding, I chose to get out of the house before I blew completely.
I grabbed my keys and decided to drive across town to my brother's house.
I just needed to vent.
I didn't need or want any input or advice.
I just wanted to be able to let the crap spew out without fear of judgement or involving anyone else.
Being the consummate coach that he is, he knew well enough,that I was not looking for answers or suggestions, just a safe space to let the mounting pressure out.
After 15 minutes of effusive rhetoric,I was calm enough to let him know I was done .
Not resolved,but done enough to regain mu composure and try to salvage what was left of the day.
The episode did not just go away.
It has taken almost 24 hours to completely deescalate.
All night last evening, I rehashed the events of the day.
After a fitful fairly sleepless night, I started the day filled with many of the negative emotions that were left over from the day before.
It's now about 4 p.m. , well over 24 hours since this melt down began and I can now share with you that most of it has left, and I am once again dealing with it.
I have to tell you,it was exhausting.
Juvenile,and ineffective yet somehow very real.
Time now to move on, deal with it and understand that yes indeed sometimes s#!t happens!
Here's today's song of the day:
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