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The problem is that most people spend their lives looking... but not truly seeing.”
~ Joe Navarro
Way back in June at the beginning of this summer,knowing that I would have the third week of August off,I made plans to meet up with a very special and dear friend.
We met 46 years ago and despite a period of almost 3 decades apart, we have rekindled our relationship, a friendship that I cherish beyond words.
Yesterday, exactly 1 week before we were planning to meet up, I received a text from my friend which read "waiting for a second opinion fro the doctors.....the outcome will determine our meeting up next week."
What the F@#K!
My heart started racing and my mind immediately sped off to some very dark places.
What was wrong with my friend?
What did we need an opinion on?
What bad news will I be hearing from her?
I texted back asking simply"second opinion for what?"
I waited and waited for a response.
Seconds turned to minutes as my heart kept sinking.
Finally the reply came.
"Oh. I may need surgery, I broke my wrist on Monday."
Well thank goodness for a broken wrist!
Listen....I'm not getting any younger here.
Neither is my friend who is much older than me (366 days to be exact!)
The truth is, I have had much loss in my life and as we all know,inevitably there will be more.
Some people start to become numb to loss.
The pain seems to be easier as they incur more loss.
This has not been my experience.
Each loss I encounter seems to tear open my soul more and more.
The fear and anxiety that grows in me as new losses approach is more crippling than the pain of the loss itself.
I am afraid that this is something that I just will never get used to.
I couldn't be happier to hear that my dear friend broke her wrist.
I will check in with her in a few hours to see what the surgeon said.
Our plans may change (not cancel).
I can deal with that.
The Autumn of my life is approaching.
My hopes are that it will be a very long season, with maybe a touch of Indian Summer along with it.
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