Okay,so I know I owe you a Word of the Month for December. The truth is I just don't have one yet. I have been a bit preoccupied with the process involved in getting my CDL. 
Today I cleared 1 hurdle and found out that as annoying as I believed the process to be until now,it is actually even more frustrating and annoying than I imagined.
And there just ain't much I can do about that. 
With this new bit of information I now realize that all I can do is step back and allow the process to work its way one step at a time.
This will actually make things easier for me.
Much like the proverbial watched pot, there is little I can do to speed the process along.
I can now divert my energies to other endeavors and projects.
While the disappointment that accompanies this newly gained knowledge still stings greatly, it has allowed me to begin the process of regrouping and tending to other matters.
Once again I marvel at how raw the pain was earlier today and how I allowed myself to be in that pain, which ultimately allowed me to experience it and eventually move past it. 
"Pain is inevitable. Suffering is a choice!"
How often have I repeated that over the last 4 years?
Well one more time certainly feels right today.
I am actually pretty pleased and amazed with my ability to allow myself the opportunity to feel the pain, and then let go.
Maybe it's the meditation?
Maybe it's all of this personal development stuff I have been ingesting and digesting.
Maybe it's finally having a sense of self worth.
Or maybe it's all of the above.
What ever it is, it certainly is refreshing!
And oh so liberating!