The Wall! For a long time now, I have awakened to the same view,a wall. I can't recall how long this has been. It is more than days. or weeks. It has been months, and more than 2 or 3. At first, it was just there,inches away from my face. It overwhelmed me at the time, this wall. It was this enormous facade preventing me from moving forward.Every morning I would open my eyes and there it was again. If I looked up, all I saw was the wall.When I looked to my right or my left,more wall.I stared at the bricks on a daily basis. Soon it became the object of all of my thoughts and energy. How do I get around or over this wall? In the middle of the night, I would wake up and there it was again, the wall. I would try to fall back to sleep,yet my mind would be troubled as to what I should do about this wall.When I did manage to fall back to sleep, I found myself dreaming about the wall, my face getting closer and closer to it increasing its enormity.Before I knew it my entire existence was driven by the presence of the wall.It has become so pervasive in my thoughts, that little, maybe nothing else seems to matter. When I woke up on Friday morning, a few hours before the start of Passover, ,I knew that my time would be filled with final preparations for the holiday and our Seder that night. I left the house at 6 a.m., returned home at 8 and spent the next 10 hours cooking in the kitchen. It was now 6 pm and time to set up tables, seating and begin final preparations. Meticulously and steadily I went about making sure every detail was addressed.Seder....the word means order, and there was definitely an order to my entire day and now as nightfall drew near,the final details were of the utmost importance. My day finally ended a little after 2 a.m.The next morning I was out of the house early and off to services.Sitting quietly and alone with my thoughts, I realized that I had been so busy for the last 28 hours that I had completely forgotten about the wall. Well maybe not forgotten.....it was as if it was not there,as if I had turned away from it and just did not look back.This has continued through the entire holiday weekend.I just have not given any energy in regards to the wall.It has been peaceful and stress-less. I wish I could tell you that I have learned something from this, that tomorrow I will simply wake up and go about my day as if the wall did not exist.Unfortunately, I am not sure that I can guarantee that will happen. What I am sure of is that I know there is more in my life than this freakin' wall. What will this look like tomorrow?  I'll have to wait and see. I just know that I have enjoyed this mental respite and will be aware of what an alternate way of approaching life feels like.