Live to fight another day!

Another How am I doin' Friday is here and I am getting along.That may not seem very energetic, however it is actually a great thing.The truth of the matter is with the week I have had,I am good being able to say that I am getting along.Given the events of the last few weeks, including this week,getting along and moving forward is a huge win.
I had plans to get up today,get dressed and head out to services this morning.When the pain in my arm that plagued me all night was actually worse this morning,it became evident that it might be a good idea to step back from my agenda and just take it easy.Notice I did not succumb.I made the conscious choice to let go , even if for just this very short period of time.
Around 3 am,the ever present pain was becoming unbearable once again.I am comforted knowing that eventually it will go away and all of this will be a memory.
It did however leave me to ponder how people in pain,who know that this will be their lot in life until the end of their days,get along?If there were no chance of it ever improving, and if it meant an existence of pain and suffering on a daily basis with out any relief,how does one continue?Those brief moments with friends, loved ones and family, pale in comparison to the countless hours of insufferable solitary pain.The image of a life like that was more than upsetting or unsettling.It was overwhelming.
Thankfully,I know that my current malady,condition and situation will eventually improve.Soon, it will be back to business as usual.That brings me great comfort.It also allows me to let go,again not give in, and give myself space to heal,physically, spiritually and emotionally.
 So today, no shirt and tie. Sweats and slippers are the dress code.
Lose the battle and win the war?
Not at all.I choose to not fight today and live to face another challenge when I am more fit to do battle!
Why engage in a war that I just can't win?
That would be a supreme waste of energy and probably cause more suffering than anything else.
Instead,today I choose to get along!




Shabbat Shalom!