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Things here at the shop are a little tighter than I would like (major understatement!). I can't put my finger on exactly why; the weather, the economy, a slow start to the New Year or more likely a combination of many factors. I am confident that this is a temporary, albeit annoying, turn of events, however it has left me a bit stressed out.
My response to this was to have eaten a bowlful of obnoxious topped off with a healthy portion of sarcasm today. Admittedly, that's a very ugly way to be. It accomplishes nothing.
Still, I haven't been able to stop myself.
I am hoping that writing about it will allow me to see just how silly this is and move past this place I am wallowing in.
Not that sarcasm is anything new to me. In my family, it used to be the primary avenue for communicating. I (we) have gotten much better over the years, however in times of stress, it is easy to fall back on bad behaviors. For some that means drinking, overeating or drugs. My opiate of choice is obnoxious sarcasm. Awareness is the biggest part of overcoming this pattern of abuse.
Luckily, I am totally aware of how I am acting and will be able to stop quickly.
In the meantime, I may just want to leave interacting with others on the back burner as much as possible.
Shabbat Shalom!
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