Another How Am I Doin' Friday

"Your expectation directs your attention; 

and where your direction goes, 

energy flows, 

so goes the direction of your life"

~ Darren Hardy

It's another How Am I Doin' Friday.

And all is well in my world,actually all is great!

That is except for this God awful stiff back that I am dealing with,most probably a result of being stuck behind the wheel in horrific traffic yesterday for almost 3 hours!

As I sat here at my desk,pondering my menu for tonight's Shabbat dinner, it dawned on me that Passover begins in exactly 2 weeks.

In the past, that would have set off a plethora of bells,whistles alarms and sirens in my head.

So much to do and so many things to prepare.

Not so much anymore.

The numbers at our Seders have declined over the last few years.

The 20 plus days of the past are more like in the teens,and low teens at that.

I think this is the first time I have admitted that to myself.

We still turn the entire kitchen around.

What was once a daunting all day affair for the entire household,has been reduced to a chore that Max and I can knock out in under an hour.

As for getting the house up to par,the cleaning people will be here bright and early Sunday morning.

I am so on top of my game , that I even remembered to ask them to help me in cleaning out the fridge and stripping apart the stove.

Before they get here, I will have already used the self cleaning feature on the oven (Susan hates the smell so I will have to do it while she is at work!).

Even shopping for the holiday will be dramatically less stressful although somehow I will still manage to spend an unholy amount at the grocery store.

Probably the most challenging part of this whole process, will be figuring out a menu.

Between the vegetarians,carbless,no fats,"I don't eat green things" and other assorted restrictions that I am presented with, it becomes a real test of my ingenuity to put out what I would consider a respectable presentations.

Ooooooh...I just realized how sad I am about all of this.

Passover used to be a very exciting time of year for me.

That feeling just is not there.

There is no anticipation.

There is no fervor.

There is no excitement.

It all seems so matter of fact.

That's really sad to me.

I hope that in the next few days that changes. After all,Passover only comes around once a year,and those years seem to be piling up,heading towards a time that I don't want to ever acknowledge.

I hope you have a peaceful weekend

Shabbat Shalom!